Turning 25

Is there such a thing as a quarter life crisis… because I may be in one?

For the past two weeks or so, my Photography business has been booming.  Time cannot seem to keep up.  I stay up late editing, after photoshoots are completed, while trying to keep a semi normal social life (for an introvert), keep our house clean, take care of my pet and husband’s needs and work a full-time Office Job.  Did I mention I also complete volunteer work at our Church?  On top of that, I manage all this while taking a high dose of the energy sucking drug, Accutane.

Accutane has been a blessing and a cursing.  I was quite depressed this winter, spring and early summer… even to thoughts of suicide.  You do not understand what it means to be depressed, damaging, and downright sad all the time… until you’re experiencing it for yourself.  Depression is no friend of mine, but has sure attempted to stick around in many periods of my life.  So, my Dermatologist and I worked out a lower dosage that works better for me.  Thankfully, in two weeks’ time, those thoughts and feelings as strong as I’ve had for months now will diminish to the pit from which they originated.

Good has been prevalent in my life during that time, for which I’m thankful. I’ve had the opportunity to grow a photography business that I am overwhelmed with blessing in.  With 2-3 shoots a week (mostly paid), with much editing needed… I’m excited and passionate about where this adventure is taking me.  At the moment, I am working on having pictures printed and framed for a local business.  Then, I am working on a Christian Calendar, to sell to local churches and develop a pricing strategy for tangible product.

When I took a moment this weekend to absorb all that had transpired in 2017 thus far, I am overwhelmed.  Overwhelmed at how fast our lives move in a positive (or negative) direction and how too quickly we watch it slip away.  My friends and family are changing and to be honest, I am a little scared.  Scared of what the future holds. We need to be lead.

I desperately yearn to be in the center of God’s Will and purpose for my life, stepping out of comfort zones continually and seeking the things that have been spoken.  (Cue the bridge to “Forever I Run” by Elevation Worship).

But why am I so unhappy?

Happy Times

  1. Hiking in the woods with my Husband; joking around and taking in the cool air.

  2. Heading out into our garden with my black rubber boots and tools in hand to tend to the herbs and vegetables I grow for my family.

  3. Doing just about anything at Harding’s Point Campground with friends.

  4. Roasting marshmallows over an open fire while friendships are made between strangers.

  5. The freedom of attending a church where you can cry and open the deep dark wounds of life, while people surround you with love and comfort in the process.

  6. Laughing with your best friend until you are both crying and hiccuping.

  7. Laying on our couch in a cozy blanket, with my head nuzzled gently into my husband’s neck.

  8. Spending quality time with my Mother-in-Law; talking about life, love and how good our Creator is.

  9. Travelling this world we live in with those I love and being in awe of just how beautiful this Earth and it’s Creator are.

  10. Watching a full sunset envelop the sky and fade today’s cares away.

Struggles of an INTJ (From an INTJ)

Struggles that I identify with as an INTJ

Taken from:  Struggles INTJs can understand

  1. INTJs have an overwhelming need to be by themself. They would be happy on an island where they can think all day. And that island would be structured perfectly. Neatly. During all the hours of the day. And everyone goes to bed at a reasonable time. You can study all you want, not be bothered, and can finally focus on your favorite ideas. An INTJ could live on an island with all the other INTJ personalities and never interact with them… and most likely be very content. All problems seem solved, humanity is at status quo… all good, right?
  2. She has confusion as to why people cannot see the most logical solution… immediately. Then she will have to communicate the logical prowess from her brain out her mouth. Which works, of course, but can be a bit blunt if not careful. INTJs talk with their logical brain, and complain in their head with their emotions.
  3. Being a bit too systematic to the point where creativity is lost. Then they will force spontaneous creativity which may be hard to follow. Or glitchy. (Personal note:  Situations like these cause me to strive to be better at a craft I am currently working on… which is a good thing, right? Learning to slow down when a spark of creativity comes helps.)
  4. Feeling a strong need to only be with the same kinds of people. But also… to live together on an island where no one has to talk to one another. (Personal note:  THIS IS 100% ME.)
  5. Feeling left out in group settings, but unable to fully express why… They may want to be left out. They are not sure how to express your feelings because they are abstract and not necessarily understood by others. There is a genuine complex in having logic easily come out, emotions rush out, and getting people who are less equipped for thought on the same page, if there is a same page.
  6. Weird moments of performance ability that no one was expecting. Wait, a minute… you can be an actor?  You do poetry?  What is this painting?  There are sides to you… that we were not expecting. Like when my friend suddenly decided to dress up like a mountain. Why? (Personal note:  I like when this happens; keeps people on their toes.)
  7. Feeling as though you could be king of your domain, but are too into solving problems for the greater good that you come off more like a chancellor or wizard-hermit. But you wouldn’t mind having a wizard-hermit hat. (Personal note:  Where is MY hat?  LOL.)
  8. A love for ideas that can often be difficult to match. You could sit and think about things for an entire day. You could sit and recite speeches in the bathroom and no one would know it. People often miss out on the full, beautiful picture that you are.
  9. You want people to make their own decisions, but sometimes you do not like their decisions. You would prefer they listen to you and follow through with it, but you don’t want to be a butt about it. You just think they are going about it the wrong way. (Personal note:  I know I am not perfect, but it does aggravate me to no end when people do not take good advice.  Or people who are not teachable. Don’t stick your nose so far up in the air. Who cares that you have taken lessons in a certain area for years? There is always room for improvement.)
  10. Sudden moments of disengaging from group activities to go on walks of your own… which confuses people more than you’d like. (Personal note:  I do this in the right situation, around the right people.)
  11. Having strange interests in things that others do not quite understand. Or connect with. Niche interests. Collecting stamps and learning spells from ancient Norwegian books. (Personal note:  My interest in documentaries about kidnappings, people with oddities, etc… does not come up in conversation often for good reason.)
  12. They sometimes tend to respond to conflict with logic and reason, rather than the desired emotional need,.
  13. Intuition that is lightning speed fast and addictive… but can leave you feeling empty-handed or excessively stubborn.
  14. Have no patience with inefficiency and confusion.

BONUS:  How to be friends with me! (As odd as I can be).

How to Be a Good Friend to an INTJ

  1. Keep things clean. Dirty dishes? Do them. Period.
  2. Be concise. Don’t go into the depths of nothing for no reason.
  3. It’s normal if they go on long walks and bike rides. Don’t harass them about this too much or they’ll draw into it more.
  4. Play to their interests and hobbies. They like talking about that. It’s a great way to bond with them.
  5. Kill all stupidities you have. Or hide them… but they’ll find your stupidities. (It is true.)
  6. Tell them you appreciate them.  (Do this insincerely and “yur done, bud”.)
  7. Keep things somewhat logical and orderly.
  8. Trust them when you can… do not be afraid to not trust them either.
  9. Be honest. Don’t lie. They’re a powerhouse of upset when you lie.
  10. Let them solve problems.
  11. Do what you can to help them bring out their emotional reasoning. Because for many, they don’t have that down to a fine art just yet. (Yes, I enjoy this… do more of this, future friends.)
  12. They are fans of acts of service. Do something good. Help them to believe in humanity again.
  13. Let them be a villain for a little while. It might be more of a fantasy of theirs than you think. (Muahahaha.)
  14. Plan ahead. Going on a date? Make plans. Impress them with how you can make plans. (I will be impressed.)
  15. Let them lead. (You will not be disappointed).

Hope you were enlightened with this information!


The Doctor-Approved Secret to Clearing Your Hormonal Acne That Actually Works (From Pop Sugar)

Original Article here

Take aways if you suffer with Intense Hormonal acne and nothing seems to be working:

How to Get Clear Skin Through Diet | POPSUGAR Beauty

If you get the OK from your doctor, here is a list of supplements (from Dr. Berkowitz) and what they do:

  • Alpha lipoic acid: helps stop the stiffening of collagen fibers.
  • Antioxidants: stop free radical production. For example, vitamins A, C, and E help to better hydrate the skin.
  • Hydrolyzed collagen: reduces wrinkles.
  • Hyaluronic acid: hydrates skin. (Yes, you can take the popular skin care ingredient as a supplement, as well!)
  • Astaxanthin: fights free radicals and prevents damage from the sun and other environmental toxins.

Here are specific supplements for acne:

  • Zinc: helps accelerate the development of new clear skin cells and reduce the inflammatory response to bacteria.
  • Probiotic: promotes healthy or good bacteria and thus decreases the inflammatory response that damages skin.
  • Coconut oil: helps replace the protective acid layer that keeps skin healthy and reduces inflammation.

He also shared an anti-inflammatory eating plan:

  • Avoid refined carbohydrates, which increase insulin and inflammation.
  • Avoid gluten, cow’s milk dairy, processed foods, and excessive amounts of omega-6, which are all pro-inflammatory.
  • Increase use of spices: turmeric, cinnamon, garlic, and parsley all have anti-inflammatory effects to help keep the skin healthy and slow down the aging process.

As always, please consult your Doctor.

I learned a lot from this article as I am going for blood work tomorrow to be approved for Accutane.  Accutane is a medication I have wanted to be on for many years, but never had the means and courage to get it.  I cannot become pregnant, be on a multi-vitamin, and there are many side effects.

However.  If this is the cure to my never ending acne, (as it has been for many people), I will be over the moon.

Below is a list of things I can remember that I’ve tried over the years to cure my acne.  I’ve been between frustrated and disappointed in myself for years.  Praying Accutane changes my face.

  • Honey and cinnamon
  • Tea Tree oil, organic and non-organic
  • Cutting out dairy
  • Charcoal
  • Wipes
  • Cleansers, organic and non-organic.  (You name it, I’ve tried it).
  • Benzoyl Peroxide creams
  • Crushed aspirin
  • Tactupump cream prescription
  • Cleansing soaps
  • Face Masks
  • Salicylic acid creams
  • Toners
  • Lemon and Baking soda
  • Birth control
  • Antibiotics (Such as erythromycin)
  • The Proactive Kit
  • Hormone supplements (Evening Primrose Oil)
  • Biotin supplements
  • Egg white mask
  • Aloe
  • Face Steaming
  • Cutting out sugar from my diet
  • Cleansing water
  • Acne Spot treatment pads
  • Zinc supplements
  • Cutting out caffeine
  • Exfoliating cloths

Birthday Thankfulness


Today is my birthday, (*shh*…  don’t tell anyone), my 24th to be exact.  Normally I take the day to spend time with my family and reflect on my life.  How about you? Do you have a birthday tradition?  Instead of going on and on about today’s events, I’d like to share with you 24 things I am thankful for… in honor of turning 24.


  1.  Jesus Christ in me, the hope of glory.
  2.  My immediate family, who love and support me continually.  (Seriously, you guys are the best.)
  3.  My wonderful Husband and his amazing family.
  4.  The breath in my lungs in which provide me with life.
  5.  Healthfulness in my body and mind.
  6.  Center Point Victory Church and it’s Pastors, for more than you’ll ever know.
  7.  Our pet kitty, Milo, for the joy and love he brings to our home.
  8.  Our beautiful home that God provided to us for shelter and comfort.
  9.   My closest friends, who can make me laugh until I cry and understand my oddities.
  10.   Melissa and Kaylee, my closest girl friends, who understand me and love me anyways.  🙂 ❤
  11.  Undertone, my husband’s Recording Studio business.
  12.   Saint John:  because you are lovely and picturesque and I love living in you.
  13.   Canada:  for making me feel safe since birth and being a better country to live in than many others I can think of.
  14.  The camera I have been blessed to use for my new hobby.
  15.  Adventure.
  16.  My job, even though I have to tell myself this sometimes.
  17.  That I can be/am a help to others in need.
  18.  That I am given opportunities to try new things every year.  (This year I —  ran a 5K, celebrated our first Wedding Anniversary, saved a wild baby animal, became a head over Young Adults Ministry, tented at a campground, grew a veggie garden, and more…)
  19.  Skills – that I am a “jack of all trades” person and do not exclusively excel in one area.
  20.  College education.
  21.  New music, and the joys that come with new albums from my favorite artists.
  22.  Good food with friends.
  23.  Nature– in any form.
  24.  Pinterest:  for your unending ideas and inspiration.

Good Habits of an Introvert

Orginal Article

What do Barack Obama, J.K. Rowling, and Audrey Hepburn all have in common? They are considered to be people with introverted personality types, often perceived as shy or socially awkward, but really full of extraordinary talent and abilities. While extroverts are defined by their outgoing natures and more readable dispositions, introverts prefer to keep to themselves and think carefully before acting and interacting.

The misconception is that introverts don’t like people or that they aren’t good at socializing with others — which is not the case. The main difference between the two personality types is simple: extroverts tend to thrive more on interactions with people and in some ways need them to be happy and successful. On the other hand, introverts usually do not require energy and inspiration from anyone; rather, they find it within themselves more often than not.

These deep-thinking do-gooders have many qualities that make them perfect for leadership, success, and power, and here are just a few of them:

1. They look before they leap.

Planners that they are, introverts make an effort to understand how things work before making any rash decisions, so that when they do make a plan, it’s well-informed and thought out.

2. They form deep, meaningful relationships.

Although introverts aren’t necessarily social butterflies, they do tend to form very solid relationships with a select group of people. While they are able to get along with others in general, it’s the deeper bonds they form that make people trust them more implicitly — which motivates those around them to follow their lead.

3. They can work independently to get things done.

While very capable working with a team, introverts often work best when left to their own devices. This quality makes them very valuable in professional environments, because they are self-driven and don’t need to have their hands held, which is one reason why they tend to rise quickly in their careers. J.K. Rowling, author of the Harry Potter book series and self-proclaimed introvert, was quiet and shy growing up but started writing her thoughts and ideas down at the age of 6. When she hit it big, she did it by applying her talent and creativity without much help from anyone else.

4. They take the time to appreciate things.

Introverts are very good at differentiating between what’s really worth their time and things that are just better to let go of. This ability to hone in on the positive means that they know when to cultivate something that has promise, usually resulting in a great outcome.

5. They are actually great public speakers.

Often perceived as being very shy, introverts actually do well speaking in public or to large groups because they tend to arrive very prepared, with a well-researched speech or presentation. When they are speaking about something they’re particularly passionate or knowledgable about, it translates noticeably in their delivery. Barack Obama is frequently cited as an introvert, and it has certainly helped, not harmed him, when it comes to speaking publicly.

6. They help foster a team environment.

Introverts often work better with groups because they are good listeners, and this openness to compromise is beneficial in a group setting. Oftentimes, leaders who are overly extroverted can inadvertently steamroll people who aren’t as outgoing or willing to speak up.

7. They are able to keep their emotions in check.

Because introverts aren’t always as outwardly expressive about their feelings, they are more likely to evaluate these feelings alone, giving themselves time to sort out everything privately before addressing the issue publicly. This means there is less chance that they will explode or get outwardly upset at others; instead, they are often a calming presence during conflict.

8. They are OK with thinking and working outside the box.

They are not as concerned about following what other people are doing, and because of this, they are more willing to try out new, creative, and original ideas — even if they seem left of field or risky at first. Mark Zuckerberg, founder of Facebook, is a prime example of someone considered to be an introvert who took a different idea and made it into something extremely successful.

9. They know when to call it quits.

Introverts are very in tune with their needs. They will push themselves to their limits, but they avoid letting it get out of control. If they feel like they have exhausted all their resources on something and have given it their best effort, then they are capable of letting it go and pursuing another solution with an equal amount of effort.

10. They make their own happiness.

It’s a difficult thing to find happiness when you seek it in other people — they can be unreliable or unaware of their responsibility to you. Introverts like to make their own happiness so that they have control over it. Audrey Hepburn called herself an introvert saying, “I love being by myself, love being outdoors, love taking a long walk with my dogs and looking at the trees, flowers, the sky.” Like many introverts, she knew exactly where her happiness could be found.

Summer Photography (Part One)

Saint Andrew’s, New Brunswick, Canada
Rockwood Park, Saint John, New Brunswick, Canada
Harding’s Point Campground, Kingston Penninsula, New Brunswick, Canada
Fredericton, New Brunswick, Canada
Rothesay, New Brunswick, Canada
Public Gardens, Saint John, New Brunswick, Canada
Grand Bay , New Brunswick, Canada
Harbour Station Fair – 2016
Rockwood Park, Saint John, New Brunswick, Canada
Rockwood Park, Saint John, New Brunswick, Canada
Rockwood Park, Saint John, New Brunswick, Canada
Rockwood Park, Saint John, New Brunswick, Canada
Rothesay, New Brunswick, Canada
Harding’s Point Campground, Kingston Penninsula, New Brunswick, Canada
Harding’s Point Campground, Kingston Penninsula, New Brunswick, Canada
Saint Andrew’s, New Brunswick, Canada
Saint Andrew’s, New Brunswick, Canada

Inspirational Quotes

Peace is better than bitterness.
Interesting perspective.  I’ll endeavour to not say I am “busy”. anymore.
Settling is for the weak. Take a chance. Do what may seem impossible. God makes His impossible plan, possible for your life.

I refuse to allow myself to be anything other than what God has called me to be.



We are blessed!



Campfire Recipes


It’s six days away from Summer! Vacations, Sunshine, Friends! Oh boy!  Before we jump into the Campfire recipes, I’d like to share our favorite camping spot, Harding’s Point, NB.

My husband and I were invited last year to go camping to a couple places. We ended up at Harding’s Point, New Brunswick in their Wilderness Tenting section.  LOVELY area for anyone looking for a safe, clean,  and friendly environment.  Just look at the view!  You are directly on the Saint John River, with the water only 20 or so feet away! (Depending on which site number you take.)

Aerial view, Tenting area on the left, in the woods.
Pool, Washrooms and Showers for use of Campground folk only
Wooded area for walking, hiking, etc.

What is your favorite part of camping?  Mine is Exploring/ taking photos and EATING.Who doesn’t travel to try new food(s)?

Now, onto the recipes!

  1. Melted Cheese Dip for Nachos, Veggies, etc

  2. Orange Cake

    Grab an orange and cut the top off like a jack-o-lantern. Eat/store all innards of the orange with a spoon and then place some cake mix inside, up to about half way. Replace the lid and wrap the orange in foil. Place the package on a bed of coals in the fire for about 15 to 20 minutes. Unwrap, and enjoy! A small orange cake cooked to perfection. The flavour of the orange combined with the cake mixture is delicious.

    For a super easy chocolate cake mix you’ll need:

    • 1 cup self-raising flour, sifted
    • 1/3 cup cocoa, sifted
    • 1 cup  caster sugar
    • 80 grams butter, softened
    • 1/2 cup milk
    • 2 eggs, lightly beaten
  3. Chocolate and Marshmallow Stuffed Bananas

  • 4 ripe bananas
  • 1 cup mini marshmallows
  • 1 cup semisweet chocolate chips
  • 1 tin foil boat


  1. Slice one banana so there is a deep slit in the top of the banana. Be careful not to cut all the way through the banana.
  2. Using your thumb, or a spoon, separate the fruit of the banana and then stuff it with chocolate chips and marshmallows.
  3. Construct a tin foil boat that is just big enough to hold the banana upright.
  4. Place the banana into the tin foil boat and place it onto the coals. Cover your foil and let the banana grill for 4-5 minutes until the skin of the banana is dark and the chocolate is melted and the marshmallows are puffed.
  5. Remove the banana in the tin foil boat from the coals with a pair of tongs. Let the banana rest for 1-2 minutes and then serve.


Personality Analysis & Development Through Christ



Those four letters are the Meyers Briggs Personality Test results that most describes me.

“The Architect”

It’s lonely at the top, and being one of the rarest and most strategically capable personality types, INTJs know this all too well. INTJs form just two percent of the population, and women of this personality type are especially rare, forming just 0.8% of the population – it is often a challenge for them to find like-minded individuals who are able to keep up with their relentless intellectualism and chess-like maneuvering. People with the INTJ personality type are imaginative yet decisive, ambitious yet private, amazingly curious, but they do not squander their energy.

With a natural thirst for knowledge that shows itself early in life, INTJs are often given the title of “bookworm” as children. While this may be intended as an insult by their peers, they more than likely identify with it and are even proud of it, greatly enjoying their broad and deep body of knowledge. INTJs enjoy sharing what they know as well, confident in their mastery of their chosen subjects, but owing to their Intuitive (N) and Judging (J) traits, they prefer to design and execute a brilliant plan within their field rather than share opinions on “uninteresting” distractions like gossip. Continue reading “Personality Analysis & Development Through Christ”

What’s Been on my Mind Lately

Knowledge is the understanding of a concept.  Wisdom is the application of knowledge.

Hello! Today, God has been showing me how all the small details that he uses to show us the big picture in the future.  Many blessings in my life have been a result of listening to His voice. He might say “buy that for someone” or “stay at home and pray”  or “forgive this person”… all opening our hearts and changing our character.  With God, He has us do  or say things that we may not understand at the moment, because His ways are not our ways.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9 (NIV)

God, for all of my Christian walk, has had me do things I might not understand at first, but was all part of His plan and blessed me in the long run.  Have your ever experienced that feeling of being led?  You are going about your day and you have a strong desire to do something and you know it’s Him.  It’s a God lead KNOWING.  Your spirit witnesses with your soul.  We are walking by faith, and God places a desire in our heart for it.  What do I mean by that?  God may call you to evangelize and for SOME REASON you find God telling you to go have coffee at (insert Coffee Shop name here). There, He instructs you pray for someone or to read your Bible.  IF you continually let His praise to be on your lips, then the person you’re talking to, will have nothing but the LORD to receive from you.  Going forward, God can use you for bigger things, showing you how people are important to Him, and to you.

19 Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

Matthew 28:19-20 (ESV)

Being led should be SO IMPORTANT to us. Our lives are too short on this earth to throw away.

Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away.

James 4:14 (KJV)


Thank you Lord, for leading and guiding me every day in my faith walk with You.